Okay, it's time to confess. I haven't wanted to come out and be all wishy-washy in public. But since I'm continuing to be wishy-washy and some of you have been wanting some info, I better let the cat out of the bag.
I'm not sure I want to do the TIP horse thing. It's strange how things keep getting in the way. First I had my trip all planned and then the crew at the corrals had an unexpected meeting and the corrals were closed. Then my grandma got sick. Then I fell on my head. I finally felt better for one whole day, felt renewed and had the energy to tackle the project, decided I WAS going to do it. And today the chiropractor broke my head again. (Not literally, but it kinda feels like it.) Other little considerations have had me thinking this isn't the time, as well. Like the fact that Bella can be ridden, and shouldn't be put on the back burner, as I had planned to do before I had her lameness diagnosed. Other stuff.
I want so badly to learn from some more mustangs, but I'm starting to think that now is not the time. A friend of mine told me that I'm having trouble deciding for a reason, and eventually something will happen that will make the right thing obvious. I think I'm at that point. For now.
I will do this eventually if they keep the program going. I may do it eventually anyway, but on my own dime, if I have to. I might find another way to help horses and learn from them at the same time.
Certainly, if anyone wants a mustang gentled, I'd be happy to be the one to do it. I would happily drive down tomorrow and get their horse and bring it to them at whatever level of "gentle" they preferred. But I'm not going to go out and do it right now when I'm not sure the horses will even find homes.
So if you know anyone within a couple hundred miles of Potlatch, Idaho, that would like to adopt a mustang and take advantage of this Trainer's Incentive Program, send them my way.
Sorry to disappoint. I'm disappointed too, but I think this is the right decision. Just for now. I still hold high hopes that I'll be able to do this in the future.
(Looks like I went from wishy-washy at the beginning to decisive at the end. I guess I've made my decision. It feels bad but it feels kinda good. I can move on now...)