Friday, September 25, 2009

Again, I feel like I didn't accomplish much with Anchor today, but really we did make some progress. I rubbed down one leg and repeatedly asked him to lift a foot, but he never did. He did let me rub all over his hoof. Went out later in the heat and it was just no fun. We didn't get anywhere. Mornings are better.

My grandma is in her last hours. She had another stroke and was seeing things, talking to kids in the room who weren't there. Now her body is shutting down. They're keeping her sedated so she's just sleeping. This is what she wants. She signed a do not resuscitate order. The last big stroke she had, she saw the light and thought she was going to meet Jesus and see my grandpa again, and when they brought her back she felt cheated. Knowing she's ready does help, but it's still awful. She was about the most awesome grandma a kid could have. She'd play with my hair, let us eat whatever we want, take care of us when we were sick. She didn't tolerate snakes kept in her garage, however. :)

My sister is really sick with the chemo. She was crying a lot today, really upset that she has to keep doing this. It must be horrible to have to keep going back and sitting there while they pump you full of poison, knowing how sick you're going to be. It's not the throwing up, it's the pain in her body that's bad. Even hydrocodone isn't doing anything for it.

There's something wrong with my dog. I think she might have cancer too. I need to take her to the vet.

So... I'm all happiness and light today... In fact, if there was something wrong with the truck, I might be able to make a country song out of it. Truly though, I am very thankful for the things that are going right in my life. Very, very thankful.

Tomorrow we're having a birthday party, with really tasty cheesecake. My poor daughter, this isn't her best birthday ever. But I'll do my best to make it better. I'm going to take her shopping at the craft store and the mall, and she's the sort of girl who loves the mall. Maybe we'll have lunch together, just us girls.

3 comments:

Lea and her Mustangs said...

Andrea, I am so sorry you are having to go thru this, I am sorry your sister has to go thru this. I am just sorry for all the good that does and I do pray. Wish you coul have been to the meeting too. I felt like a sitting duck. Maybe they don't have the passion for the mustngs that I do, I don't know. Cathy has a good idea. I want her to organize her thoughts and get it down to present it at the October meeting. Chin up honey and hug Tonka.

Lea and her Mustangs said...

Andrea, I am so sorry you are having to go thru this, I am sorry your sister has to go thru this. I am just sorry for all the good that does and I do pray. Wish you coul have been to the meeting too. I felt like a sitting duck. Maybe they don't have the passion for the mustngs that I do, I don't know. Cathy has a good idea. I want her to organize her thoughts and get it down to present it at the October meeting. Chin up honey and hug Tonka.

Kate said...

Very sorry about your grandma - it's hard to lose someone important in your life. Chemo is the worst - your poor sister but at least it's supposed to do some good.

Enjoy your daughter's birthday and your work with the horses!