Sunday, December 19, 2010

I am angry tonight. I don't like being angry. I like to let it mellow, flow away. I realize I'm having a hard time letting go because my feelings are hurt. And I'm a little stressed out.

Unrelated rant: So today my sister's in-laws told her that they thought her cancer wasn't that serious, she would have been fine without treatment (wrong!) and that even so, if it had been them they wouldn't have been treated. They would have accepted that it was God's will that it was their time to die. AND this was in front of her father-in-law, who also had cancer and was successfully treated for it. What an incredibly horrible thing to say! It's the equivalent of saying I wish you were dead! I can't believe the things people will say without thinking. The wife has a history of having a bad filter on her mouth and being hurtful (I think intentionally "accidentally"), but I don't see how it could be much worse than that.

My little 9 year old friend Kaia came for a 5 day visit today. It was a long day, she missed her flight and had to come in the evening. So although I was up at 5AM, we didn't get home until about 8PM. I had a really good day visiting and shopping up in Spokane. Somehow there was more time for real conversation. But I did miss seeing my horses in daylight. And my daughter experienced her first full day at home alone (at 14 years old - is she a little sheltered?)

I'm already feel better. Thanks for putting up with my griping. And do me a favor - send me a little happiness tomorrow.
but I hope I don't need it.


arlene said...

I hope you are feeling better and not stressed. About what your sister's in laws said...Wow! I'm trying to think what I'd have said if someone said that to me and I think I would have been too gob smacked to respond. I might have said, WTF! lol I hope it didn't upset her too much... sometimes you just have to consider the source.

Tina said...

Yeah, if she has a bad mouth filter, you can't expect her to be any different than she is. Wanting people to behave the way you would have them behave is the fastest path to unhappiness, because they just won't. Just shrug your shoulders and go on being the good and tactful person you want yourself to be. That is all you can do.

Also, she wasn't wishing your sis dead, because she won't allow herself to believe it would come to that. Some people are like that too! Denial ain't just a river in Egypt, as they say. :)

She is probably a deeply unhappy woman. Pity her and rise above and go outside tomorrow and look up at the sky and put your nose in your horse's thick coats and take a big sniff and ring your sis and tell her you love her, and be happy. XXX

Linda said...

Ugh. There is so much I could say about that--bad--I just have to bite my tongue. It brings up several memories for me of hearing the identical. What can you do about people like that?!? They hid visciousness behind "God"--it's really sick.

Kara said...

Wow, that's really not something that she should have said! But do you really think that if she was in the same place that she'd really just "accept" it and refuse treatment? Sounds like something that she can say simply because she is not faced with that difficult situation.