I came so close to bringing home a new horse today. It's a very sad situation - a woman is dying of cancer and has 8 horses. Her friend is trying to help find homes for two of them so the woman's husband isn't left to care for them all while he's grieving.
I went to look at a gelding and ended up absolutely falling in love with a three year old filly. I could definitely see her being my next special horse. Absolutely beautiful appaloosa (supposedly a domestic born mustang but she seemed too refined) - kind of a silver chestnut with spots all over, and well put together, and sweet and sensible. I was about to say I'd pick her up tomorrow but then I noticed a bump on her back. She was flinchy and sensitive when I pressed on it. The vet thinks it's just scar tissue from an old scrape and won't cause trouble with riding, and I wanted to believe that, but then why would her skin crawl and twitch when I pressed on it? I hated to say I couldn't take her, but I couldn't. Bummer. What kills me is, what if the vet is right? Or even if she just needs a chiropractor or some body work and she'd be fine? But it's too much of a gamble, and I already have 3 equines here that I can't take on a trail ride at this point. Sucks. If I had extra money lying around I'd take her anyway to do the lady a favor, and treat any problems she might have. But I don't and I can't.
When I got home Pedro was standing at the gate staring at me, as if to say he's the only equine I'll ever need. Maybe he's right. I kind of like the idea of just going hiking with the donkeys, and having them carry me on occasion after Pedro's hooves grow out. And I always have Scout, who does need some riding.
So, things are the same here...