Monday, September 19, 2011

"Nothing is worth more than this day." Johann Wolfgang von Goethe

It really is amazing how good it feels to get outside and work with the horses. I just came in from doing some groundwork with Scout and it made me happy. He's such a big cutie. I still haven't ridden thanks to this head congestion but I'm going to go to the doctor today and hopefully they can give me some good advice, and maybe medicine that doesn't make me feel loopy.

In other news, my grandma has been in the hospital and yesterday she said she didn't want to fight anymore. It's been a stressful time. We have all been so afraid. But then in the afternoon she made a sudden improvement so I am really hoping the upward trend continues. They can't do the surgery she really needs because she's so sick and weak, but if she gets strong enough and they fix the valve in her heart, I think she'll be with us for a good long time. I'm not ready to give her up yet.

My sister had a biopsy today to check a suspicious growth. I really think it will be like all the other scares and she'll be fine, but there is always the fear that cancer is going to rear its ugly head again. I'm going to go up with her tomorrow to see her oncologist. I wish they'd have the biopsy results that fast but they just can't.

On a happier note, since I started giving Soxy bute every day she's enjoying life again. Yay! I'm not giving up on her yet. I won't let her be miserable just because I can't handle having her put down, but, in the words of Atticus Finch, "it's not time to worry yet."

I've been reading so many blogs where people are in the same boat I am, fighting depression and negative inertia as we move into fall. I wonder what we bloggers could do to lighten things up. Any ideas? For my own self, I'm going to force myself to go out and work with the horses every day, whether I want to or not. And try to get out on the trail some more. And declutter my house (already made a lot of progress on that).

I just had an idea and added it to the top of this post. I have this book I got from Lea of Lea and her Mustangs called "Happiness Quotations." I'm going to start sharing them with you all. Some of them are very inspiring.

Another thing that I read yesterday really struck me deeply: "What happens, happens." I've just finished To Kill a Mockingbird for the zillionth time and I'm starting a new book by Molly Gloss. I love her books. This one has less of a western theme. Or none at all. It's kind of Sci-Fi - about some Quakers moving to another world. I like it a lot so far. If you all haven't heard of her, you absolutely have to read "The Hearts of Horses," a book about a young woman horse trainer in the early 1900s in NE Oregon. If you follow the Mustang Makeovers at all you'll recognize some of the names of people and places she mentions, not in the story but in the acknowledgements I think.

I've gotta quit rambling on and get going. Have a great day!

1 comment:

Lea and her Mustangs said...

A great post Andrea. I am struggling with the same things. I get so tired of it. My hand problems are keeping me from working alot with Sage or the ponies. I have been screaming to myself about my body failing me. So thats my whine. Hope your sister and your grandma are OK. Miss you.